Listened to my heart, fell in love and experienced it to the core.

But who was I in love with, with the one who I thought you were or the one who you really were,

So have you changed? Do people change that easily? How do ones' priorities change?

How can the person who was once most important for you become the one who will only understand and never expect?

How can lying to her/him be so easy?

Does the definition of love change overtime for individuals?

When we loved it was so innocent and pure, we argued, fought, cried, hated each other but still couldn't stay mad for long at each other.

Now is it really over??

How come you don’t write to me, now that we are afar? Or do you also wait for my letter?

But why should I write to you when it was not my mistake, or should I?  Is it even worth it? 

Why didn't you try even once to heal my broken heart, perhaps you don’t even know what I went through and what it means to me... And, it was me who lived like shit wanting you, and you said you love me but never meant that ! I knew it, but you went on denying, I don't even have you now to pour out my worries....

You want me to come back to you, but you are not you, you are gone. However, here in my heart I still have you in those precious moments that we shared together, in the fierce arguments that we had, in the love that we showered on each other, in the air, in the night, in the moonlight, in the dew drops, in music, in my life... <3 :="" b="" nbsp="">

First Hand attempt to rhyme....after a long time!!

Zillion Miseries

Life and misery can be synonyms,

And I know many won’t agree.

Nor am I a pessimist, but I swear I do accede

On the above, is based the essence of zest;

No matter how much we strive.

But I’ll tell you a secret,

Miseries are endearing.

Don’t run away from them cause,

They are engaging, enthralling, entrancing;

Teaching us and creating us competently.

Colossal of life experiences- gifted to Humanity,

Wherein emotions are not smooth flowing or unilinear.

But are always conflicting, conflating, colliding, contesting,

Situations end up befuddling and bewildering.

Attachment or detachment??  What should be our life mantra??

Impulse or constancy?? Or both at once?? Life is GREY, nah!

Its GREY, BLACK AND WHITE as well.

Its DESTINY and CHOICE as well.

Every part is made up of zillion other parts.

And this is the confounding mystification and ornamentation of life.

This is what makes life a misery,

Difficult to understand it, or even to relate to it at times.  

Misery is seductive and thus life goes on,

And so does sorrow, pleasure, affection, tremor, vehemence, ecstasy, excitement, ..........

The inevitable day...

It was inevitable for it had the charm that could soothe the turbulence of my mind. I knew not if I was right but I did it to feel alright. Indeed, I escaped in time to realise the moments and the day will be worth remembering. Like a prism, he showed me the different colours of life. I was relieved or maybe transcended into another world. There was a reason for me to be there. Perhaps to re-belive that good times are awaiting in the series of life's journey. I need to go on and have faith. It was a wonderful evening. Though, there were spasms of silence and we were talking everything under the sky than what I silently wanted. However, the purpose was served. It was just that I needed. I can continue in my journey with the sweet memory of being there, being with someone. Ah!.. now my mundane life calls me back. I have to live on .... doing the things I need to. I will wait .. cause its worth waiting........no matter how long to see those colours again!

Going with the flow...

Once again a point has come in my life where the best option is..'going with the flow.' Who says that, " men are masters of there fate"? When Caesar himself was helpless in his span of life. All that I can do is do what is my call, do the duties .....and not wish for the fruit. I feel lost, I feel like a loser and I know it is useless explaining my position to others. Life could take such wild turns and yet, we are supposed to stay connected to our roots. Its tough, my dear, but still I need to smile. Why doesn't He does a Miracle?? Well, as the saying goes.. I am perphaps his favorite tea bag. I am supposed to yield to his needs. I cannot hurt you and will not. I know I acted crazy at times and I wanted to let go. But. I don't have that strong a heart to do so. But... what about the end?? Or rather AM I NOT MAKING IT MORE COMPLICATED? Why are you not understanding......... or why am I even feeling so?? Oh! God.. I need one sign....just a little guidance. Though I can still continue ....going with the flow. However, help me reach a inner balance..where I can place the priorities of my loved ones, before mine. As in my life, I am not important but my dear ones are. Help me reach the neutrality. Just be by my side. Amen.

Desperation

What is more admirable, desirable and profitable? Sustainable improvement or overwhelming excitment to improve.... well i mean in any case. I have seen many people doing well , and their primary mantra is sustainability and constant efforts. Infact most of them are like that . The question is that "why am I telling all of it?" The thing is that I am always in hope of improving, expanding my knowledge, increasing my opportunities ...however it is always a "sustainable""hope"..the effort comes out only when i am overwhelmed with passion... desperate to get something , to do something. Is it because i am too lazy, or i am not dependable, or may be i need something emotionally.... well in the end its all crap! I work under pressure, desperation.. maybe i am not normal. Hoping to get some light, my urge is now finished.

The fear of failure will never allow you to suceed!

[this was my topic for my extempore..these following words were what I UTTERED.. :P] Failure is scary! Palpitation is dainty! However failure is what brings focus to life, it is what makes us earnest in our approach to achieving success. The famous quote by Shakespeare in his play ,'As you like it ' says , ''Sweet are the uses of adversity" Another favourite quote of mine is " what the caterpillar calls the end of the world, the masters call a butterfly." ... So failing is not that bad also, infact failure is a critical and important aspect of everyone's life. We can list many examples of famous persons who succeeded but had a dark past, when they were loser in front of others, some were even called insane and abnormal. Be it the Father of science, Einstein or our dear Rabindranath Tagore. Moreover, we should realize that failure adds spice to our lives. Monotonous feeling of success can choke you! Failure helps us taste and realize success. Ultimately, failure makes success. :) So, next time you fail remember: Their is no greater failure than no longer trying. :)

Relationships......

How would you describe the human world?

Well, I would say its nothing but an intrinsic, intricate pattern woven out of the various relationships of an individual. Moreover, is it possible to live a life of isolation? Pondering for a while over this question will make one realize that life and isolation can never go hand in hand. The essence of life itself is mutuality. Thinking deeply we realize that, we are born as a result of a relationship, we live on to create new connections with people by whom we are intrigued. Lastly we face death ..( we may argue that ultimately we die alone).......but still our relationships continue to exist. They live on in this world and create further new connections. Life is like a spider's web.....delicate, mystique and utterly tangled. Relationships are what created us ...and what we create thereafter.